Thursday, February 11, 2010

Wednesday, February 10, 2010

Almost two months old!

Momma's boy!

Hang on, Sweetheart

Mckenna holding dad's finger with one hand and wedding ring with the other. That's an IV in her arm, Cpap on her face for oxygen, and a pacifier in her mouth. The white cord is her temperature probe, attached with a little bit of love (the gold heart sticker on her stomach)


I'll pass on that next blood test, thank you very much.


Um, can somebody give me some milk please? My feeding tube's a bit dry.


Connor with some snacks for later...much later


Mckenna loves it when mom or the nurses give her tiny amounts of sucrose, so we thought we'd try chocolate as well.



The little Engine that could!



It's been an uphill battle for Mckenna so far, but she definitely turned the corner this week! Our little miracle baby finally got off her ventilator and now has the nose oxygen, seen above (Cpap machine). The steroids have helped her lungs expand and she feels so much better. At first she really hated it, and mom had quite a battle trying to keep it on her-- she actually missed the ventilator tube and kept reaching for it with her tongue. Since it was on her since birth, we think she might have thought it was part of her body. She was also laboring quite a bit while trying to breathe with the Cpap, and her heart rate was ranging in the 220-235 range that day, but has since adjusted quite well. If she keeps it up, we don't think she'll need to go back to the ventilator-- our fingers are crossed. It's so much easier for bacteria and infection to grow with the ventilator. She often opens her eyes really wide now, and she is much more alert when we're in her little cube doing the "cares." We're so proud of her!

Con-man continues to do well also, but we need to somehow convince him to keep breathing. He has "brady" episodes, as the nurses call it, about once every two hours when he literally stops breathing. It's fairly common in premies, when either they forget to breathe or they are too exhausted (when he's held he does it more often, because he uses a lot of energy). When he does this, his oxygen saturation decreases and his heart rate consequently drops, usually from about 150 to 70 or even lower. It happens more often when he's held, we've noticed, or at the end of his feedings. The nurses (or mom and dad) frantically rub his back or head to try to stimulate his breathing again. It's dangerous because of how fast his vitals drop. Because of this, he's earned himself another oxygen tube (nasal oxygen) even though he went without any kind of support for three days. Although it's a bit concerning, he should grow out of this as well, and is on some reflux medicine to help. Both babies still have the feeding tubes, and are otherwise progressing pretty well. Connor weighs 3 pounds, eleven ounces, and Mckenna weighs 3 pounds, 6 ounces. They'll be two months old in two days!!

Monday, February 8, 2010

superdad!



This man...is a superdad and my hero! I don't know if he will ever realize or know how much he has helped me and our kids get through this. When I went into the hospital I was so scared and depressed at the prospect of losing our children. The whole time I was on bedrest, Eric stuck by my side and did everything he could to support me, comfort me, and cheer me up. When I was on bedrest I got really homesick, and was really sad to not be at home during the holidays. Because I was homesick Eric brought home to me...literally! He decorated our room with a Christmas tree,christmas lights, a wreath, picutures, flowers, blankets with home,..everything! We had so much stuff in there, we even had to call my family to be our "moving crew" when I went to have my c-section.
In the hospital, before i had the babies, I was not allowed to get out of bed at all or even sit up, and was kind of going stir crazy. Eric would plan a date almost every night to give me something to look forward to. One night he planned a "candle light" dinner and blindfolded me while he set up white lights, decorated a table with a table cloth and the works, and even brought wine cups with sparkling cider, and romantic music. Another night he brought his guitar and sang to me. He would give me back rubs, talk to me, help me with my makeup and and even shave my legs, just to make me feel better. He also gave me many preisthood blessings to help me get through it.
The whole time I was on bedrest he gave me so much love and support. I really do not think I could have made it through with out him. When I went in at 23 and 1/2 weeks they kept telling me I would deliver at any time. I think between the blessings and his love and support I was able to stay in that bed for another two weeks.

Now that the kids our here, he is still here just as strong supporting us. He spends hours with the kids everyday, talking to, loving and holding them. He sends me home to take a break everyday when he gets off work, and he does so much to help around the house. It is amazing the bond the kids already have with him, especially Mckenna. One day when Mckenna was crashing,things were going really bad and we feared we might lose her. He sad by her side, would lay his hands on her, and tell her how much he loves her. The amazing thing is when he did this, her oxygen levels would get better. She truly knows and loves her dad.

I am so grateful to have a man that has helped our family get through this hard time. He is the glue that has held us together. I am so grateful for him, and admire and respect him so much. Thanks for all you do babe! We love you!

Connor's first bottle!





Mckenna rocking the cpap. You go girl!

More nicu fun!







It has been an exciting last couple of days in the nicu. Connor has been our little champ and is coming right along. Connor was on his cpap machine, but about a week ago he decided he didn't want it anymore and kept taking it off all day. Finally the nurses were getting frustrated, because about 2 minutes after they would put it back on he would pull it off. Finally they let him just try wearing a nasal cannula with oxygen. A couple days later, Connor decided he did not want the oxygen either and kept pulling it off. They decided to see what would happen if they take the o2 off. Now our little guy is just on room air with no tubes, oxygen, or anything! We are so proud of him. He also got to try his first bottle the other day. He was so funny, I don't think i have ever seen a more confused boy! I put the nipple in his mouth and he just gave me a really confused look for a couple a minutes. He finally kind of got it and decided to suck a couple times, then he would just look around confused for a minutes, and suck a couple more times. A short time later, he finally got some milk out, and actually too much. He ended up choking on it and dropped his heart rate, and that was the end of our bottle session. I also got to get him to try to nurse on me, but he was even more confused about that then the bottle. lol.

Mckenna has had an eventful week also. We finally think she is starting to turn the corner! Yeah! With a remedy of steriods, antibiotics, vibes and breathing treatments, we have been able to wean down here oxygen down to the twenties during the past week. This is huge for Mckenna, especially considering her oxygen was almost to 100 about a week ago. On Saturday they pulled out her ventilator tube and we are now trying her on cpap. At first she was really anxious. I think she was freaked out to have the tube gone since she has had it since birth, she actually kept feeling for it when we took it out. She seems to be getting more used to it though, and as of now she is doing great on it. We are soo proud of her! The doctor said the if she can stay on the cpap through wednesday, they think she will not need the ventilator again. They are a little worried about her regressing because they stopped the steriods yesterday, so they hope her lungs can stay strong with out them. We hope and pray that she will too. We are so proud of our little girl, she has come a long long way.

Thursday, February 4, 2010

Love is...this face!


Is this a smile little buddy?


Yesterday was a good day at the nicu! Mckenna finally seems like she is starting to get more stable. They have put her on steriods and special breathing treatments that are supposed to strengthen and help her lungs. It has been a pretty hard week for her, but the last couple days her lungs finally seem to be improving. Her ventilator settings are now starting to be decreased, and yesterday she was satting well on 23-30 percent oxygen, which is really good for her. She also got to do some snuggle time with mom and do kangaroo care after not being able to do it for awhile because of her lungs. Little brother is doing great (knock on wood!}. He is now off the cpap and just on nasal cannula prongs! They also switched his feedings from continuos to being run over an 1 1/2 with and 1 1/2 break in between. Yesterday he also got to try some non-nutritive sucking for the first time!! I was so excited! Non-nutritive sucking is where i pump, and then put him up to my breast just to try to see if he has any interest in sucking. He seemed pretty confused at first, but did suck a little after time. Yesterday was such a good day for both of our kids, we are so proud of all they are doing! Its funny because with your kids in the nicu you get so excited for every success and good day. We are looking forward to many more..

Before....and two weeks later!!




Tuesday, February 2, 2010



Here's some older pics of the kids, at about two weeks old (what should have been exactly six months in the womb...) They both lost a little bit of weight right after they were born, but quickly started gaining. We'll post some newer pictures soon.

Kangaroo care



Dad and Mckenna doing kangaroo care-- Ever since the babies were a couple weeks old, the doctors wanted us to do kangaroo care. They lean us back in a recliner and place the baby carefully directly on the chest/neck of mom or dad. The skin to skin contact helps with the development of the babies, because they feel the heartbeat of their parents. It's so fun, but it's a bit nerve-racking because you're supposed to stay extremely still so you don't bump their ventilator tubes. Mckenna is only allowed to do it when she's feeling well, but Connor can pretty much do it any time.


Mommy and the nurse taking care of Connor when he was two weeks old


Connor with his nurse!

This was Connor at about 2 weeks old and the size of a banana! He had jaundice, so they put him under the lights, which of course he didn't appreciate. Doctors gave him more verced that week than I ever imagined a baby would be able to handle, but it was necessary so he wouldn't squirm too much and dislocate his ventilator tube. Fortunately his liver works fine now, or they would need handcuffs to calm the little guy down now that he's doubled in size.

Monday, February 1, 2010

Blessed

It is amazing how times like this make you really grateful for the small things. Before I had these babies, my view on my upcoming motherhood was totally different and more self-centered. I remember when anticipating motherhood my worries were more about me than my babies. I would often be worried about how the babies would affect me, my freedom, my budget, my figure, my social life, ect. I don't think I really appreciated what a gift it is to be a mother.
After I went into preterm labor and was told I might lose my babies, I felt like my world was turned upside down. I also got really sick myself, sicker than i have ever been in my life. I was so scared, I had no idea what the future would bring. The kids are born and it is still hard. Everday is such a fight for them. It is so hard to sit there and see your child in so much pain. A helpless, beautiful child, that you are supposed take care of, and you can't do anything but watch.
All of this has made me realize that life is such a gift. Health is a gift. Breathing and even being able to sit up is such a gift! Its a miracle to have a child and amazing that any child is born healthy. It has also been a huge testimony builder of the priesthood and plan of salvation. It is so comforting to know that if one of our babies passes that we will be with them again someday. When I am with the kids they have a special spirit with them, and you can feel it so strongly. You can really feel the love that heavenly father has for them when we are with them. I know he is with them.
I am so glad that I am a mother and have these two beautiful children. I am so glad that I have the gospel and for the knowledge and comfort it gives me. I am so glad for a supportive ward that has given me so much love, friendship, meals, and help. I am grateful for a wonderful husband who is so supportive and loving and a great father. I am grateful for all my friends and family that have come over and done laundry, brought meals, and listened to me vent.
I think we all go through hard times in our life. Times that bring you down to your knees and make you wonder if you can go on. But it also makes you grateful for all the small things things in your life that are great. Life is great and this is how this experience has made me feel. Blessed...we are truly blessed.

Sunday, January 31, 2010

It was the best of times, it was the worst of times

Didn't Charles Dickens write a book that started that way? Anyway, that is the perfect way to describe what's going on in the Banner Desert neonatal intensive care unit right now. We've noticed such individual, distinct personalities in Connor and Mckenna, and when the twins are doing well, it's the best of times. When Mckenna struggles badly, it's pretty much the opposite. Our little Con-man is growing quite a bit, currently at 3 pounds 4 ounces--more than double his birth weight. Mckenna is at 2 pounds 14 ounces, exactly twice her birth weight.

Connor is a fast-progressing little man who demands attention when it's too noisy outside his incubator or when he's frustrated. That would be pretty much all the time unless he's sleeping because of his lack of appreciation for oxygen machines, wires, thermometers, and vital sign probes-- he wants them off his body..immediately. Earlier this week I was kangaroo caring with Mckenna and I saw his nurse exclaim "Connor!" and rush to his cube. His oxygen and heart rate had dropped and his monitors were beeping because he had removed the nose oxygen apparatus and put it in his mouth, where it was giving his tonsils some unnecessary air conditioning. After the nurse restored some order, his O2 and heart rate levels returned to normal. Then she called some other nurses over and they all had a good laugh, along with us. He also loves being held and loves his mommy so much that she can calm him down immediately whenever he starts waiving his arms in frustration. He melts when she does kangaroo care with him, and loves it when grandma Burns, who is visiting for the week, holds him as well. He is doing great so far.

Mckenna has had another rough week, maybe her worst since the pneumonia. She has "crashed" almost every day this week-- meaning she goes to 100% oxygen support on the ventilator. It's extremely frustrating, especially now because she is on some controversial steroids that are supposed to be helping. This particular steroid, Decadron, is controversial because it can affect the development of a child, but the doctors all agreed that it would be necessary to take in order to help clear up her lungs. Yesterday, the steroids seemed to be working, because she was down to 30% oxygen level on the ventilator, and we were extremely hopeful. Her lungs regressed throughout the day, and she became increasingly agitated. She was put on two different sedatives in order to calm her down. She's obviously in pain or agitated somehow, because normally Verced works fine to calm her down, (even after her heart operation). When Verced didn't work, they added phenobarbital to her system which is used mainly to inhibit seizures. She reached 100% support again by 9pm last night, but still wasn't getting enough oxygen circulation through her body. She turned the sickly white/gray color that is always present when her oxygen saturation is poor. After an x-ray around midnight, they noticed that the right side of her lungs had collapsed, and oxygen was only going through the left side. They adjusted the tube slightly to allow more air passage through the left side while trying to re-inflate the right side. This morning they are doing some blood cultures and aspirate (sp?) checks for infection, and she got another blood transfusion, her fourth so far. They started her on antibiotics again as they wait for the results of the blood tests. We really don't know know how long she'll struggle like this, but have found some peace in the scripture Matt 11:30 when Christ says "Take my yoke upon you.. for my yoke is easy, and my burden is light." Our prayers used to mostly involve pleadings with God that she would live and get better, but we're not so sure that it's the Lord's will at this point. We appreciate all the prayers and support, but also ask that prayers and requests for Mckenna will involve the Lord's will for her. We are hopeful that she'll turn things around and improve, and have good reason to believe that they will, but we believe that sometimes with God's infinite love and wisdom, healing is not part of the plan and death can be a blessing. We also know that we'll see her again if this is the case. We love our kids dearly and are confident that things will get better, and are still hopeful at this point. They are, after all, only seven weeks old and supposed to be in mommy's tummy for another seven weeks. Thanks again for all your prayers and support.

Sunday, January 24, 2010

Crazy kids

It's funny to see our little babies develop personalities.. Connor has proven and continues to prove that no tube is too big to rip out.. he has successfully performed surgery on himself by ripping a ventilator tube out of his mouth (all the way from down in his chest) c-paps off his face, and temperature probes off his body. When I saw his first cpap machine, I new it didn't stand a chance and figured he'd have it off pretty soon. Sure enought, he's now on his second version of cpap, because the first he kept pulling off his face. He also really dislikes it when we change his diaper, wipe/suction his mouth, check his temperature, or really anything except for kangaroo care or leaving him in his little incubator with the covers down to block the light.. He loved it today when Karisa held him and sobbed audibly when we put him back in the incubator. It really was the first time that we've heard him cry, other than a wheezing sound. it's still obviously a premature-lung cry, but at least it sounded like a baby. A nurse standing about 6-7 feet away said she could hear him, and in the past we've had to put our heads very close to him to hear any sound at all. He is at 2 pounds 12 ounces tonight, and has gained a lot of weight recently, almost doubling his birth weight of 1 pound 10 ounces. Yesterday for about an hour he successfully breathed room air with no help from a ventilator, cpap, or anything! His nicknames are "Con-man, and "Dong" (for ding and dong--Mckenna is "ding")

Mckenna has lethargic movements, and constantly holds her hands out, almost like she's showing us how open and wide she can open her hands. She loves to put her hands over her head, on her head, or covering her eyes. It's almost like she is telling us that she's had enough and covers her head for comfort!! She opens her eyes really wide when she's feeling well, and she has big blue eyes. The eyes can't focus very well yet according to the doctors, but they certainly are wide and we can usually tell when she's feeling OK because the eyes get wide and she just looks up at us when we're doing her "cares" (every four hours the nurses have a schedule where they change diapers, etc). She doesn't cry as much as Connor, but she's dealt with a lot more with her surgery, lung disease and pneumonia. A diaper change is no big deal at all for her, contrary to her twin brother. She is still very high on oxygen support, on an aggressive ventilator, and we are still pretty worried about her. She really hasn't improved on the oxygen, and for some reason really seems to be getting worse instead of better. Her nicknames are "Peanut" and "Ding" and some of the nurses call her "little miss Prissy," since she has such funny hand movements. She weighs 2 pounds 10 ounces at the moment.

Friday, January 22, 2010

Eye exams and weight check

The babies both had their first eye exam today, and so far so good! They now both weigh a little over 2.5 pounds and are a month and a half old! They've both nearly doubled their birth weight at this point and probably will within the next 1-2 weeks. Their original due date was supposed to be March 23, so the little rascals have done pretty well considering they should still be in the tummy for two more months. Their eye exams both went pretty well. With premies, doctors worry about ROP, which is a problem with blood vessels growing in the place where the retina should form. In a premie, the retina is still growing at birth, and starts from the back of the eye and moves to the front until it forms a complete circle around the center of the eye. The problem is that sometimes blood vessels formed by the presence of oxygen block the retina from finishing it's growth, which causes permanent blindness. If caught early enough, the doctors laser-surgery the blood vessels to help the retina form, which helps a baby to see. Right now, Connor and Mckenna are both free of ROP, or the presence of those blood vessels, but the retina is only approximately 30% developed in Mckenna and 40% in Connor. Basically, it's so far, so good.. the blood vessels can still develop because the doctor said it's really too early to tell much, but he did tell us that he didn't see any problems yet. The problem can occur until the retina is 100% developed, so he plans to come and check again in two weeks. We're excited that so far we have cleared the first eye hurdle, and hope that the next exams will produce the same results. Mckenna is doing a little better today, and she's being weaned down on her oxygen needs. She's back to about 54% right now, which is high but much better than she's been the last two days. She is a little bit bloated in the abdominal area, which may have been one of the reasons that she had her little crash two days ago. Connor has remained around 25% O2, which is great, and for a few minutes today the nurse took him off the cpap completely and he was breathing perfectly with no help from a ventilator or anything, which is extremely encouraging to see! He has a little bit of a toaster head from laying on his right and left side, because he hates lying on his back. We're forcing him to try the back occasionally though because we don't want him going through life with an abnormally thin head, which sometimes can happen to nicu babies. Anyway, that's about all the news today... thanks for the prayers!!

Thursday, January 21, 2010

Roller Coaster ride with Mckenna

They say that good days are often followed by bad days in the NICU, and that things can change at any time without notice, and that's exactly what Mckenna decided to do yesterday. About 5pm yesterday, they were bringing her down for a kangaroo care, where they put the baby on mom or dad's chest for some skin to skin contact. When they brought her to me, for some reason she started to "de-sat" (oxygen saturation), which means her oxygen level in her body is reducing. When this happens, usually they just turn up the ventilator to fix it, and the kids bounce back with their oxygen levels. Our twins are certainly no strangers to the de-sat, because that's basically all they've done since coming to the NICU-- (some nurses have even nicknamed them "ding" and "dong" because monitors always beep when the kids de-sat, and it happens so often with them).. Anyway, yesterday Mckenna was de-sating when they put her on my chest, and the nurse couldn't turn up the ventilator high enough to keep her saturation level around 85-95% which is where it's supposed to be. The vent was turned up from 40 to 50, then 60, 70, 80-- all in a span of about 30 minutes. We had to put her back in the incubator because something was definitely wrong.. she still continued to de-sat, so I called Karisa who was home cooking dinner and gave her the not too unfamiliar news that "Mckenna is struggling." She rushed over, and unfortunately Mckenna still continued to drop while in her incubator. The vent was turned up to 90 and then full blast, 100. It still wasn't as bad as last time, which ironically happened exactly two weeks ago, when she was sick with pneumonia. Yesterday the nurses were able to keep her sat level in the 85-95 o2 range with the ventilator on full blast. (Last time she was around 30-50 sat level on 100% O2 for a few hours. She went limp, and she had no color to her skin at the time. Two high risk doctors, a heart specialist and a respiratory specialist, two nurses and a social worker were all on the scene then, and we didn't know if she would make it). Yesterday was different because she was moving around a little bit, and still had her color, so although we were worried, we knew that she had made it through worse than this. There were only nurses on the scene yesterday instead of half a dozen doctors and specialists like last time. She was only at 100% support for about 20-30 minutes yesterday, as opposed to several hours last time. Anyhow, they brought in a new ventilator and it took her down from 100% support to 60-70%. Today she remains still higher than usual on the ventilator but at least she's "sat-ing" in the 80's and 90's like she should. She may have an infection, but they think it's just her lung disease and the only thing that can really fix it is for her to grow. She is tolerating her feeds OK, and we're so anxious for her to put on weight and for this problem to correct itself because it's causing us mucho stress. Anyway, the good news is that Con-man is doing just fine on the cpap machine, and may not ever need to go back to the ventilator if he keeps it up. We have heard him cry for the first time since coming off the ventilator because the vent tube prevents throat noise. His cry sounds more like a wheezing sound than a cry, because his voice isn't very well developed, but I'm sure that will come with time as well

Tuesday, January 19, 2010

Both babies are 2.5 pounds!

It's been a pretty good few days for the little guys, thank goodness! Both babies now weigh in at a whopping 2.5 pounds, with Connor at 2 pounds 9 ounces, and Mckenna at 2 pounds 7 ounces. The doctors are pleased that they've been gaining some weight over the last couple weeks, and expect it to continue-- Mckenna is feeling much better, recovering from her pneumonia and is completely off the antibiotics. She opens her eyes quite a bit more often now, and has big blue eyes. It's funny to see her with her eyes open, because premies don't control their eyes very well, and the eyeballs sort of roll around as she tries to focus on things. Connor is very similar, but prefers to keep his eyes closed more often and they aren't as big as hers are when they are open. Mckenna is still on the ventilator right now, and it's still at 50 on the 02 support (still pretty high), but the doctors expect that it will take some time for her lung disease to cure itself, and have warned us about not looking for a quick lung recovery for her. Her kidneys and other organs look good at this point, and she passed her last head ultrasound with flying colors, putting to rest the concern of her slight brain hemorrhage that she had at birth. Connor was a naughty boy a few nights ago and yanked his ventilator tube all the way out of his body!! The nurses frantically put it back in, and I guess it was a struggle to get it in (fortunately we weren't here to witness the trouble, since it was in the middle of the night), but they were successful eventually. He had the ventilator tube in for a few more days, but today the doctors thought they would try the Cpap machine another time to see if it's successful. It's been about 8 hours, and so far he's been pretty good. He's had a few "apnic spells", where he doesn't breathe very well, but he's still hanging with it for now. Last time he lasted one day and then had to go back to the ventilator tube. The reason the doctors want the kids on the Cpap as soon as possible (a helmet-like looking breathing apparatus that has a small plastic tube entering each nostril--there's a picture of the cpap that was posted about a week ago)is because the ventilator tube can cause scar tissue in the esophagus and is a possible breeding ground for infection. Hopefully Connor continues to do fine, and can keep the cpap machine on. It's tougher for a premie to use the cpap because a baby must breathe mostly on its own, with a little support in the nostrils, as opposed to the ventilator which blows air right into the baby's chest. Anyway, the Con-man has done pretty well so far. On Friday the kids will have their eye exams, so we have our fingers crossed for that. We are a bit anxious, because a lot of O2 is dangerous for a baby's sight, and both kids, especially Mckenna, has had a lot of oxygen. We're just putting it in the Lord's hands and praying that his will for the kids will be accomplished. We know that it's been a miracle so far that he's kept our little babies alive (especially our little miracle girl), and have no reason to doubt that our blessings will continue! Thanks for all your prayers and support!

Saturday, January 16, 2010

Connor flexing the "guns"


That a way, little man! He's getting the guns ready to impress his sister when they come home.

Do we look like twins?


Hey Connor, I'm practicing my dance moves, check this out!! My chest hurts, but I can still move my arms!!

Tiny feet!!

Wednesday, January 13, 2010

They're doing much better!

After a huge scare exactly one week ago, both kids are doing much better! Mckenna is off the "jet" ventilator and nitric oxide, and is on the normal ventilator again. Our little sweet girl developed pneumonia exactly one week ago, but thanks to antibiotics, she is doing much better again. She scared mom and dad quite a bit when she turned white and stopped moving from a lack of oxygen last week. Her oxygen was extremely low because the bacteria in her chest blocked passage to key parts of her body. We believe that it's a blessing from God for her to stay on this earth when it looked really grim for a few hours. Both kids are back on the feeds (Connor never stopped) and weigh over two pounds right now!!

Mckenna holding mom's hand

This is how the babies like to be "contained"


They do best with a hand on the head and the other hand on the legs and feet

Saturday, January 9, 2010

Friday, January 8, 2010

Mckenna Ruth Burns!

Connor Isaac Burns!


Here's our little man, compared to the size of a phone. We started calling him "the Con-man" the other day, and now the nurses have even joined in on the nickname

Mckenna with her favorite blanket


Mckenna's first blanket!

Connor's foot!


We took this picture to show the size of Connor's feet

Mckenna up close

Connor's awesome sunglasses!


These sunglasses look hysterically funny on Connor. Too bad that he hates them. He goes under the lights a little more than Mckenna for jaundice

C-pap machine for Connor



The doctors tried both kids on the CPAP machine, which is a nasal oxygen system, instead of the ventilator tube down the throat. It didn't work very well, and they had to go back to the ventilator

Mckenna says she's had enough of the NICU!!!

Please keep breathing, sweetheart!!


This is Mckenna's large supply of oxygen.. there's three large oxygen machines keeping Mckenna alive. The two closest to her incubator are the "jet ventilator" and the last tube is one they just brought in, Nitric Oxide. Both were turned up to the maximum level that a baby can tolerate on 1/6 and 1/7, her roughest days so far. She has pneumonia, but is feeling a little better today